I am flawed ( I know, weird right?!) and I can love myself through it. It isn't always easy, and I have a lot of moments that I hate myself. But overall in life, I love myself.
And I know that I am lucky. It breaks my heart to see people, particularly women who just don't feel the way I feel. A long, long time ago...like almost a decade, I realized that I wanted to be able to help these people feel great about themselves. Maybe not even great, maybe just okay.
Working in retail has really showed me how negative people feel about their bodies. It's crazy.
I want this to go farther than just the physical side. I want people to love their souls. That is THE hottest thing ever. If you would like to increase your sex appeal, you don't need to go on a diet, dye your hair, and buy new heels...you just need to believe in yourself. Seriously. Being sexy isn't about how many items of clothing you are willing to take off...it is about how many you can still have on whilst having people fawn over you. Everyone knows that girl. The one who is pretty...but nothing special, but everyone loves her! Let me tell you why..it is because she loves herself. It's a hot trend, you should try it.
I have a true dream of spending my life working as a non-profit organization that teaches women to love themselves and helps them find their way. And I hate anything that brings us down. There are numerous things I could mention but for now, I will stick with number one on my hate list pageants. I read an article with the new Miss Delaware, Kayla Martell. I think she is great, she has aleopecia which I suffered with a tiny bit as a kid, and as a result she is bald. She is more beautiful bald, than I am with all of my hair. Anyway the article talked about how she competed for 5 years to win the title and the first three she was bald and did not win. Last year she wore a wig and got runner up, this year, she wore her wig again and won. That sends out baaaad signals to me. It seems like she only won when she conformed. In the article when she was asked if she felt that she only won because she had the wig, her answer was something to the effect of (and yes, I am paraphrasing) "Sometimes you've just got to do what you've got to do if you want to succeed"
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What!?!!!!? I would (not so) secretly like to be an actress in one of my many lives. Does that mean that I should pose naked to get attention so that I can jumpstart my career?!
I also dislike pageants because...they're ridiculous. You've got dozens of girls who are doing an awkward corny dance, smiling way too hard, wearing beautiful dresses, parading around in bikinis, giving generic, nice answers to questions, and performing a talent of some kind.
All for scholarship. Because we all need to tone up and lose 5-7 lbs if we want a $500 scholarship.
This was much longer than I intended, but I was on a roll.
So what do you think. Am I wrong? let me know, seriously.
xoxo,
N
What boosts your confidence? Or, what brings you down.
